Most of the meeting tonight was people from the local freethought group. It felt like a nighttime version of a weekend morning meeting. We talked about a bunch of stuff. All in all, the meeting was okay as far as meetings go.
But it still isn’t doing it for me.
I don’t think my problem is with religion in general. Rather, I think it’s in the specifics of being around hyper-religious people. It wasn’t enough that I pretend to believe what they believe, I had to be made to believe it with every part of my being.
Another part of it is being told that the manipulation I’d suffered wasn’t manipulation. No, it’s being led by the spirit. Or it was an incorrect teaching. Or it was some other excuse I’m too exhausted to type out.
There’s got to be a better way for people to deal with the fallout from being forced to believe in angels and demons, and then being forced to have it all being explained away later on in life. If what happened was wrong, then it is wrong.
Right now I don’t have any answers.